Things are going very well lately! I hope it continues to do so. At this rate, 2009 could be the year for us. First off, our bedroom furniture was delivered last week! Take a peak…

WOOT!!! It is soooooooooooooo big! Good thing we didn’t order the end tables, they wouldn’t fit, haha. We’re going to sand and stain our old ones.

Dresser! & Bobby setting the TV and stuff back up. (Also being annoyed by me snapping pictures.)

HAHAHA. The space left between the end of the bed and the dresser. See? Small room. There’s still a bit of room next to my side of the bed though, so we’re good.

Spunkee approves!!!

We no longer have that gold bedding. I bought a set at Burlington a few days before everything was delivered. It was to include a comfortable, pillow cases, bedskirt, etc. The bedskirt was missing. We returned that and purchased this set at Bed Bath & Beyond…

It’s a nice and comfy set! I took pictures of our bed made up, but I left my camera at home so I can’t upload it at the moment. So the bed is fantastic! It’s gigantic! It’s extremely comfortable. I’ve slept like a baby since it arrived. The only thing I’m not use to is the hard headboard, our old one was padded. Haha.

On to better news. The fertility treatment seems to be working!! For the first time in two years of using my fertility monitor, I had my very first PEAK reading yesterday! AND TODAY! This is amazing. The fertility monitor basically reads your ovulation cycle. Mine is normally low for a few days and high for the rest, but never peaks. My body almost ovulates, but not quite. Well this time I did! I was so excited I jumped out of bed and bounced around. Things are finally happening!

This could be the month. But we won’t know for a few weeks. If not, I have two months left of treatment. And only two months, so fingers crossed and happy thoughts! Blargh, back to work.

Well we went to the doctor Friday!!  Unfortunately for me I am now a “high risk patient” and will be referred to a specialist soon.  I’ve always had high blood pressure, since my teenage years.  The past few years doctors just kept telling me to “diet and excercise” and that I am “too young for medication” and that it was “most definitely a weight issue”.  I am happy to report that the doctor we met with on Friday finally checked my entire history and concluded that no, it is definitely not a weight issue.  It’s genetic.

I’m officially on blood pressure medication that I have to take once a day, every day.  I also have to call my regular doctor this week and arrange to go in and be tested for diabetes and get my cholesterol checked.  However, I was prescribed my fertility medication and began that on Friday as well!

I’ve never had any problems taking medications.  I’ve never suffered from side effects, regardless of what they were.  That just isn’t the case this time around.  Nausea, dizziness, exhaustion, passing out, all of this and more I’ve been dealing with since Friday!  The worst though, is the migraine.  This is day 3 of an ongoing migraine.  I have a history of chronic migraines, but nothing even compares to this pain.  I’m dreading work tomorrow.

Either way, we’re on the right path to creating our baby…

To cheer me up today, Bobby left work early and we went into Atlanta to IKEA.  We’ve been shopping for a new bedroom set.  Nothing really struck our fancy at IKEA, but we did walk out with some new pans, a flour sifter, a pillow, packs of batteries and forks.  Plus a yummy lunch.

On the way home I called Haverty’s to see what time they closed.  I really hate Sunday store hours.  Thankfully we made it back to town in time to swing by and check out a set we’ve been eying.  Well, after an hour in the store, we left with our order in place and set to be delivered on Wednesday!

This sexy cherry finish hardwood sleigh bed - king size!  Woot!  Our bed is slightly different, the sides are a little higher and the legs are a bit thicker as well.  We also bought a brand new mattress and boxspring set to go with it.  A posturpedic set with a plush pillow top.   Yay!

We bought this dresser as well, same finish, without the mirror.  They were able to knock $200 off the price since we didn’t want the mirror.  We originally wanted the entertainment stand that was $200 less than the dresser but with fewer drawers.  So for the same price we got a huge dresser!

Once we get the bed and dresser into our bedroom, we’ll determine if we can fit the end tables, lol.  Our master bedroom isn’t exactly spacious!  Oh well, that’s what I get for choosing a four bedroom home over the three bedroom home with the larger master.  Oopsy. 

Anyhow, I’m still dying from the migraine.  So I’m going to pop some pain killers, lay in bed and watch Arrested Development.  Have a good week everyone! <3

Last night Bobby and I ventured around town in search of a furniture store. We want a new bedroom set. A KING. The queen just isn’t cutting it. We’re both bed hogs. We stop by Rooms To Go. I found one bed I loved (The Savannah), but the price was high. We went to American Signature Furniture and I found nothing at all there. Very poor selection considering it’s a furniture store!

We ran by Mattress Firm next. Figuring we might as well get a quote on a mattress to see what we have left for furniture. The fact that a mattress can cost $4000.00 and still just be the basic spring mattress, blows my mind. No thanks! The guy was trying hard to sell us a set though. This conversation proved to be amusing…

Sales Guy: We’re offering 0% interest right now when you finance!
Me: Yeah, I’m not looking for another monthly payment. I’ll pay up front.
Sales Guy: Well a finance plan can make an expensive mattress a lot less expensive.
Me: *wtf face* Um, noooo. Not quite…

Financing will cost you MORE than paying for it up front. What the hell kind of sales tactic is that? I looked at Bobby and we were both like - what the hell?! We’re not idiots. LOL.

As we were leaving we noticed a new building up on the hill. Haverty’s Furniture. Yay, one last stop before we head home. Neither of us expected to like it, everything else had been a disappointment. But wow! Let me tell you. I LOVE HAVERTY’S! The furniture is beautiful, well built, sturdy and extremely affordable! The sales man was an older guy and he introduced himself and gave us a card and just told us to track him down if we needed anything. I love that. Not being hounded by a sales guy is always a bonus. We found three sets we like. All we need is a king size bed and a dresser - possibly end tables, but I have to measure our room first. I can’t wait to have a nice BIG bed!

Today while browsing around the Haverty’s website, checking measurements and adding up the costs, I was thinking to myself, is this really what I need to spend money on right now? The answer is simple; no. Then I thought about our fertility issues and debts. We’re only one payment away from having the hospital paid off! That will get paid tomorrow. The rest of our debts are small and will be done by the end of July.

July. July is suppose to be our month to begin treatment. I originally postponed it. So I thought about it some more. Did a little research and said screw it. I called my doctors office.

Tomorrow at 11am I go in to discuss our treatment, get an ultrasound (no idea why) and…

BEGIN TREATMENT!

Fingers crossed that it only takes one round. This is where our bedroom set money will be going and frankly, it’s entirely worth it.

Despite the fact that it’s 90 degrees outside, my office is a chilling 68. You’d think I’d be use to the cold by now. Considering I’m from Boston! And my husband keeps our house at 62 - year round! If you’re ever over at my house, you’ll notice a pair of sweat pants and a sweatshirt on my loveseat; that’s my at-home wardrobe. The difference between work and home, is that at home, we have central air. At work, I have a giant window unit directly next to me, that blows cold air at me throughout the entire day. It’s not enjoyable. This is another reason I wear my hoodie every day all year long. Brrr!

I have an extremely upset stomach today. I feel sick and just want to go home and lay down. Unfortunately that is not an option today. I have an in-person meeting with a UPS representative that I was tricked into taking on today around 1pm. I have no interest in switching from our FedEx account to a UPS account, but the guy wouldn’t take ‘no’ for an answer. I tried to save our time, but no, he is intent on wasting his time - because even after this meeting, I will not be switching our accounts!! Ugh my stomach is flipping out.

This past weekend was rather eventful. Friday night I spent the evening making yard sale signs with a friend. Or rather, I scribbled a few out and she designed some really nice signs, lol. The yard sale was last minute and by 9pm that night, I just knew I couldn’t do it. I was exhausted! Plus Bobby was at a friends house helping him with some engine issues. I ended up going over there for a few hours, they didn’t finish the car until after 2am! Then we went to eat at IHop.

Saturday we slept in. Later that afternoon we (and Bobby’s friend) went into Atlanta to visit Bobby’s Aunt, Uncle and cousins. That was quite fun. Though Valarie was absent, tsk tsk. She must have heard we were coming and escaped to the beach! Granted I would have done the same, lol. I’d love a vacation! Bobby and his friend blabbed about guns, knives and cars with the Uncle. I hung out with Erika and talked about family junk and fat babies. And also discussed ideas on designing a badass baby nursery. (Which surprisingly, I’m not upset or angry about at all. I thought I would be!)

Sunday we just hung around and cleaned a little, until we had to head over to my parents house. We had a get together dinner for father’s day. We bought my dad some external speakers for his laptop. He enjoyed his new toy. We stopped by my mother-in-laws house as well. She went to the Varsity and brought Bobby back some food; that place is absolutely disgusting. I don’t understand how people can eat shit with grease DRIPPING off it. Vomit! We also confirmed our suspicions; Bobby’s other cousin is pregnant. Bitch is 16!! Ugh. Trashy. That family doesn’t need to reproduce at all. AT ALL. (Different cousin than mentioned earlier in entry!) She refused to get on birth control because it would “make her fat” - which is just laughable. This girl is like 4′ tall and 200+lbs. She has always been chunky. (She was the little fat girl wearing the way-to-small-for-her clothing at my wedding for those who wanted a visual.) :sigh: Now that shit makes me angry.

My cousin sent me an email last night. He’s in Texas for work right now and likes it. He knows I’m interested in moving out there. I think he’s lonely and wants family to come out, but no one else has really shown an interest in it except Bobby and I. My cousin even said “if there’s anything I can do to help you out with getting here, let me know!”. I love my family!! Bobby is getting info from his work today about moving up and relocating and such. Now if only the housing market didn’t suck for sellers.

I like to think I’m a strong person. Resilient. Able to handle a lot of things that life throws at me. I’ve been through a lot for someone my age and I’ve managed to hold my head high and continue on. But lately, that is just getting harder and harder to do.

Life is unfair. We all know this. Yet it’s only thrown in your face when you’re struggling the most to do something. In our case, get pregnant. Three years of poking, prodding, a miscarriage, hormone treatments, specialists, outrageous bills and surgery. We’ve finally made it to the point where we are allowed to start fertility treatments. Finally. (And I don’t know if I want to go through with it anymore.)

Yet somehow, people who are not financially or even emotionally prepared, are getting knocked up left and right. My cousin and his wife were a perfect example. I love my cousin dearly, I do. But it just seemed to be a competition. Now someone else in the family is pregnant. I found out last night. It was a like a stab in the heart and that’s the only way to describe it. I can’t even form a reply without getting upset.

However, I do have a lot of respect for her coming out and telling me directly. Many others have actually hidden it from me. Like my friend up in Boston - NO ONE told me she was expecting until I received a card in the mail stating her daughter had been born. I was furious.

I don’t want things to be hidden from me. I don’t want people to walk around eggshells in regards to this topic. But I want people to try to understand that yes, I am going to be upset. Yes, it will take me awhile to feel happy for you. This is something we’ve spent years trying to accomplish and people who aren’t even trying are getting knocked up left and right. Just give me time and I’ll be fine. It’s nothing personal, it’s just me still trying to recover from my loss.

People just do not understand. It was a huge loss. A loss I had to see. That’s something you can never forget.

Happy June! 2008 sure is flying by. And yet again not exactly a ‘great’ year for us, but who knows what the future holds. Lots of random shit going on lately. Where to begin?

Bobby is stuck doing overnights at a store an hour and a half away. I do not like this one bit. I hate being home alone at night. It’s one thing if it’s at his store here in town, but an hour and a half a way?? Not cool. I worry because he gets off at 5am and has to drive all the way home, he’ll be exhausted! The honestly should have just put him up in a hotel room for the 5 days. But we decided this annoyance is a blessing in disguise. Roughly 20-25 hours of overtime plus mileage = extra monies which = good.

We went to a party Friday night. I am not a party person. I do not drink. I do not smoke. I do not touch any other drugs. Not my thing - never has been, never will. I was the ONLY sober person there. Bobby drank a little, not much at all. I was the designated driver. I enjoyed myself towards the end of the evening, once people began leaving. Too many people = anxiety like woah. Plus I only knew one other person there!! I hung out with the guys, while the 4 girls sat at a table in the corner and pointed and snickered at me. Nice. (I really hate girls. Catty bitches.) The basis of the party was for one of Bobby’s friends who is being shipped out to Iraq in a week or two. We didn’t get home until at 4am on Saturday. Yikes. Completely messed up my schedule. Reminds me how much I miss being a night person. The whole 9am-5pm job just isn’t me.

Prior to heading to the party, we waited on some lady to come check out the 50″ plasma tv monitor we had posted for sale. I had been dealing with this woman for 2-3 weeks now. Via email and phone. She is the rudest bitch I have ever dealt with when it comes to selling things locally. She wanted to come check out the tv, so I told her we were available Wednesday and Friday. Friday afternoon, right before I left work, she finally responded that she wanted to check it out that night around 6pm. That’s fine. I have Bobby give her a call and give her directions. She was really snotty with him and said “I thought you were OFF today.” What business is that of hers? She waited until the last minute to reply to us! They agreed she’d be here between 6pm and 7pm. He made it clear that we had somewhere to go after 7pm. 7:30pm and she still hasn’t arrived, so Bobby called to ask her if she was on her way. She snapped at him “well I thought I’d have been there by now. I didn’t know it was THIS far down.” Talking about our neighborhood from the hwy exit, it’s like 4 miles, seriously. Bitch.

She shows up and the guy she’s with is super inquisitive. Asking questions about what we do for a living, where at, etc. Then gives Bobby a business card, he’s a life insurance person. Hahaha. Yeah like I ever plan on contacting you people again, I think not. Anyhow, stupid bitch asked a million more questions - that we’ve answered many, many times before. (I really need to record some of her messages she has left on our machine, good god what a dumbass.) She wants it. Bobby and Life Insurance man carry it out to the car. Dumb bitch just stands in my house, walks over to my DVDs and starts thumbing through them…

“Oh you like that movie. Ooh.”

“Legally Blonde? Yeah I guess you would like that movie.”

What the fuck? How does that even make sense? I’m not a blonde? Then the kicker…

“Now THAT is an…interesting chair…”

Talking about my hand chair. So I said “oh yeah, that was my awesome ebay find.” In which her reply was…

“Oh ebay. You’re one of THOSE people. *scoffs*”

WHAT THE FUCK?! The bitch totally had a holier than thou attitude and I wanted her to get the hell out of my house, but she just STOOD there. I couldn’t get her to GET OUT and she wasn’t bothering to give me the money. Finally I said “well they’re outside and ready” and the cunt walks out to the car.

Then she turns and starts walking BACK INTO THE HOUSE. Bobby got in front of her and blocked her way, lololololol. She paid him and off they went. $I@U$* I couldn’t get over what a bitch she was. After we got home from a party that night we had ANOTHER message on the machine from this bitch. “IS THERE A REMOTE FOR THIS TV?  If so call me and I’ll give you my address and you can mail it to me, overnight.” It’s a fucking monitor and I’ve already told you like 234238593425 times there is no fucking remote. Blarghh. But hey, we got $200.00 off of something we got for FREE! :P  And I am never calling or emailing that psycho again!

Yeah, so Comcast came out Friday too. What a mess that turned out to be! Jackass didn’t even arrive in the time slot we were given - he was over an hour late. Then he bitched about the attic being “too hot”. No shit?! Then he informed us he only has one box and not the others we requested. So Bobby called Comcast and they tried to say we’d have to pay an additional $95 per box. WHAT?! Not what my order confirmation states! Then the lazy installation guy claims he can’t install anything today because he doesn’t have what he needs and they aren’t “allowed” to be in the attic after 12pm. Excuse me? Why the hell would they schedule an installation appointment after 12pm if their workers can’t even be in the attic?!

Bobby had it out with Comcast for a good hour or so (I was still at work) and they’ve rescheduled us for this Wednesday. With 2 boxes. Free installation and free 2nd box. We did lose out on the $200.00 Amazon gift card offer though, grrr. (Expired 5/31. I was going to overnight our install receipt on Friday.) I think we should still get it, since it was Comcast’s fuck up and not ours!

Today we did some rushed shopping errands, since Bobby had to leave a little before 6pm to head to that store for overnights. I did pretty well, you can check that out over on my deals blog (ask for link if you don’t have one). Also I’ll probably be relocating this blog. I just haven’t decided on where yet. I’ll keep you posted.

I’ve lost just under 10lbs on the Wii Fit. My BMI has dropped 6 pts. I’m no longer obese. I’m just overweight. I tried on a pair of old jeans on Friday and they FIT!! They fit perfectly. I am quite excited about that! They are a size smaller than the ones I’ve been wearing. Woohoo.

Xbox Live is still an addiction. I have a few people to play with now. Tonight I didn’t have much luck. First I had connection issues and had to call Xbox support. I could barely understand the guy on the line. English was not his first language, but I tried hard to be patient and understand. And sure enough he fixed my problems! Hopped online and I started my own game. Then some assholes joined. Some jackass told me to get my “bitch ass back in the kitchen or suck his cock” then they promptly kicked me out of MY game. I don’t understand what the big deal is. I’m a chick. I like to play GTA. I like video games. I’m GOOD at GTA! Why must you hate on me?! Pffft.

I think we’ve sorted out our hospital bill!! And the IRS bill! And we are expecting our IRS stimulus check this month - finally!!!! Things have been tight around here. I can’t wait until things go back to normal. I hope my boss remembers to give me my paycheck tomorrow. Was this enough randomness for you all? Maybe I need to update more often rather than cram weeks worth of babble into one entry, haha. Nite.

Recovery has been well!  I feel fine.  Only minor stings around my second incision once in awhile, and usually from jeans rubbing up against it.  Otherwise I’m completely healed!  I must say though, that having scabs inside your belly button is the most annoying feeling ever.   It’s quite gross.

Things have been insanely stressful around here lately.  It’s like the month of May is cursed.  We’ve been hit with so many bills.  Homeowner’s association is due, car registration (+ mandatory emissions), oral surgeon bill, Bobby was pulled over and received 2 tickets, so those are due.  Plus my hospital bills.

Have I mentioned my hospital bills?  Yeah.  I receive one of three (possibly four) in the mail already.  Are you ready?  Brace yourself, or don’t, but be happy it’s not your bill!  $10,977.xx.  TEN THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLARS.  WHHAAAATT?  TEN THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLARS.  All because they made me stay a LOT longer than I was suppose to.  Arg.  TEN THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLARS - can I possibly stress this enough?  One more time - TEN THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLARS.  :sigh:

One of my doctors orders was not to stress out, because that will absolutely affect my cycles and fertility.  How am I not suppose to stress out when I get a bill like that?  I had a full blown panic attack last night.  My heart was beating so fast and so hard I thought it was going to rip through my chest.  I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital.  I managed to calm down, because who needs another TEN THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLAR hospital bill?  Not me.  Certainly not me.

I went to pay bills earlier in the week and noticed a huge jump in prices.  We had a bundled discount deal for our television, internet and home phone through AT&T/BellSouth/DirectTV for $80/mo.  Without ever notifying us, our bundled deal was dropped and our prices went up.  I had to call 3 different numbers to get an answer.  AT&T dropped their partnership with DirectTV, so they no longer offered the discount on services through them.  Fine.  Except our home phone line went up an additional $18.00/month - which brought it to over $60 a month and we don’t even use it.  We just need it for DSL.  They do not offer just a basic line for DSL only.  Our plan was the cheapest they offered.

Our TV bill jumped up $8.00 a month.  And the internet went up $15.00 a month.  And add on another $20.00 for the discontinued-discount for bundled services and you end up with a very, very large bill.  Not cool.  Especially since we were never once informed of it happening!

So after several hours on the phone and searching the internet, we managed to rearrange those expenses.  We’re getting rid of our home phone for good, goodbye!  DSL, gone.  DirectTV, gone.  Comcast is coming out Friday to install internet and TV for us.  $66/month and $30 install.   So be sure to use our cellphones only.  :)  We’ll be saving over $120 a month now!!!  Crazy.

I posted a bunch of shit on Craigslist too.  Hoping to sell our 50″ Plasma - only $200!  ;)  Lots of calls, but they’re all morons who DONT READ THE AD.  I sold a few Wii games on ebay.  I sold the free doll furniture Bobby found on ebay for about $200.  Yay.

Oh and WII FIT?  LOVE IT.  I’ve used it every day for 45 minutes to over an hour.  I’ve lost 4.5lbs in 4 days.  I really enjoy it.  :)  And GTA4 on the Xbox 360?  Love it!  I think I’ve played it more than Bobby has.  Xbox Live is awesome too.  Except when they hear a girls voice, 9 out of 10 times, the guys kick me out of the room.  Lame.  But I have met some cool guys to play with.  Haven’t run into any other girls though.  Hmph.   That’s my update. 

I went in for my post-surgery check-up appointment on Tuesday morning. Everything looks good. In 4 weeks we’ll begin the fertility treatments. I could have started right away, but we opted to have an additional 4 weeks of recovery to make sure the hole in my cervix heals properly (this was caused by a surgical instrument during the procedure). We’ve been given two options on fertility drugs, so we need to go over it all and do some research, but I think we’re already decided.

I’m in love with the Xbox 360. I never thought I’d care for it. Although I only like to play on Xbox Live. Last night I played for about five hours straight, oops! One hour was spent being constantly kicked out of games. Why? Because I’m a female! The second the little boys (yes, little boys) hear my voice, they’re like “omg kick the chick out” and poof, I’m booted. Whiny brats. The other hours were spent playing with Bobby’s friend Jonathan.

The past weekend, Bobby and I decided to do some much needed spring cleaning. We’ve also decided to have a yard sale in a few weeks. Make some money, declutter, etc. We haven’t had much luck with craigslist lately. We cleared out our dining room. Steamed cleaned the carpets with the new steam cleaner my parents bought us for Christmas (it is AWESOME!) and we set up a game area. Dorks, I know.

Until we have time to run up the IKEA and pick up a new TV stand, our dining room hutch will have to do. All the boxes to the right are ceramic tiles for our kitchen and 3 bathrooms. (One day we will get around to that massive project.) All our game systems (minus the Wii) are on the hutch: Xbox 360, PS2, NES, SNES, N64, Sega Genesis & Atari. Yes, total dorks. We have a chair over there now. When I finish cleaning, I’ll get more pictures.

The Wii is staying over in the living room with the big TV. Today after work I’m going to Game Stop to pick up my copy of Wii Fit! I preordered it a few weeks ago. I’m quite excited to try it!! I know I need to work on my weight (which will help fertility and my blood pressure), and I’m hoping this will make it fun and easy for me. I can’t go to a gym. My anxiety would cause a freak out if I tried!

And some random pictures…

My tiger lilies are about to bloom! Yay!

Mr. Kitty 2 created the fort on her own. She knocked over a box and pulled all the toilet paper and trash into the box!! Once we realized that neither of us helped her out, we couldn’t help but think WTF. Crazy cat. She has a TP fetish.

We made stir fry the other night. This is my plate: chicken, onions, mushrooms & pineapple with a side of fried rice. Bobby went with shrimp, ew. Okay back to work!

It’s been a very, very long week.  Lots of pain!  But yay for the pain medications that make me feel floaty.  :)  Good thing I don’t have an addictive personality, haha.  I may never want to give these pills up!

Here’s what my belly button looks like at the moment.  I won’t even bother posting the 2nd incision (it’s lower), because it’s all bloody and gross.  I don’t think my belly can possibly bloat out anymore than it currently is. 

Sexy, huh?  Haha.  I went into work on Friday and I kept hitting my stomach against the damn desk.  By the time I left that day, my stomach was even more bruised.  I’m suppose to go back full time tomorrow, but I honestly don’t know if I’m up to it.  I’m still in pain.  It hurts like hell to wear jeans, especially to sit in jeans.  I’m not comfortable wearing sweat pants to the office either.  Arg.  :/  Not to mention all the stomach/bowel problems I’m dealing with as well.  SUCKS.

We finally were able to celebrate Bobby’s birthday this weekend.  He is ridiculously spoiled.  I got him an XBOX 360 Elite & GTA4 Special Edition.  I was pissed when I realized it only came with ONE remote and NO wireless adapter (that’s another $100).  What the hell? For the amount we paid all that shit AND online gaming should be included.  Meh.  He’s happy though.  <3

I began a separate blog for all my coupon/deal blabber.  I realize not everyone gives a damn, but if you want the link let me know.  There is something so fun about getting $30+ worth of merchandise for $0.25 out of pocket!  I have so much stuff now, that I’m having my sister come by and put herself together a nice care package.  (For example, I have 17 Venus Embrace Razors.  I paid less than $8 for all of them!)  Okay back to lying down.